I can't sleep

I've been laying in bed for hours trying to clear my head so I can sleep. I can't do it, I can't stop thinking, and therefore, I can't go to sleep. Maybe after I update everyone I will be able to get a few hours before Katelyn wakes up. Here goes!

Todd and I signed a lease on a condo this afternoon! I am incredibly happy and anxious to get in there! I finally feel good about having a place to call "home". That has been really difficult for me. I have felt sad and guilty about not having a consistent, homey, home to bring Katelyn and our new baby to, when all is said and done. I have especially felt guilty about not having a place for Kate and her things. I feel much better now that she will have a home. Todd and I are both really happy about it! We are moving in this weekend... well, Todd will be moving us in this weekend. It will be a long unpacking process, I'm sure, but it will be incredibly worth it. On top of wanting a place for Katelyn to be comfortable, I want my stuff. I want to sleep in my amazing bed, and walk in to my comfortable couch! I can't wait to eat good, healthy, homemade food, and take a shower in my own shower! I am so excited about having a place to call home. Even more so, I am excited about nesting with my children and husband. It is something that we haven't truly been able to do since we have been married. It's incredible that it will just be us. I cannot wait!!!

Our place is only about 5 minutes from Childrens! It's so close that I will definitely be walking the kids up to Kate's clinic appointments. It is a 2 bedroom, 1.5 bathroom condo with a 1 car garage. Here are a few things that sold Todd and I; The carpet is brand new (which was a must), new lanolium in the kitchen and bathrooms, new paint, new toilets, and the tub was newly resurfaced. It is also one of few condo's that is at the end of a culd-a-sac and opens up to a large grass courtyard that the kids can play in. The other condo's we're closer to the street, and that was scary for us. The master bedroom is big enough to fit our bedroom set (yay!), and we will manage to fit furniture for two little one's in the second bedroom. The living room is also large and will fit our couch plus some with no problem! We will have to get a small table, as there isn't much room to fit one, but I definitely like to sit down to meals as a family. The garage is tiny, but it will work perfect for storage. I don't want clutter. I am sick of clutter. We will definitely be weeding out the little things that don't matter and take up space. The condo will be perfect for our little family, but we have to be selective as to what we bring in, as too much will crowd us out. I am very excited about having a home! I didn't realize how stressed out I was because of that lack of stability. I already feel a huge sence of relief!

Katelyn is incredible! She is still a little fireball. Her ANC is zero, which is what we want. Now it's just a waiting game for it to come back up! She was unhooked from her fluids today as she is eating and drinking well and doesn't need the extra hydration at the moment. She had a blood transfusion a few days ago and will need a platelat transfusion tomorrow. She took a couple spills today, and has the evidence popping out on her head, eye and chin. My poor baby. Hopefully the platelat transfusion will help her bruises to heal faster so she isn't all banged up. I still can't believe how well she is doing, and how incredibly well she is handling this. She hasn't been outside in about 12 weeks. I would be freaking out. I am so proud of her. She is also talking up a storm. I can't even keep track of her new words because there are multiple words every day! She understands us so well, and can remember what we tell her. She calls us out already! If she wants to walk and I tell her we can walk after a bath or a diaper change, or whatever, she will patiently do those things and then tell me "walk". She puts it all together and has the patience to wait until it is her turn. It is incredible. Of course, she has her fits and they can be dramatic but overall she is easy... and amazing. I couldn't be more thankful that she is my daughter and that I have the honor to be her mother.

Okay.... I'd love to get some sleep, so I'll try again! Love to everyone! Good Night!